When I started this blog 300 weeks ago during April 2015, it was just a way for me to work out thoughts about how music intersects with my life. Which, let’s face it, is no different than just about any other blog out there. I had no grand vision that I would craft a beautiful note heard distinctly from the noise that is the Internet. I never thought that I had such a unique voice that it would disrupt the world of online music criticism. All I wanted was a place to document my thoughts and, because I like themes, a different song a week sounded like a great idea.
I was feeling creatively restless in the weeks leading up to when I started this blog. A few months prior, I had a major life change that was very disruptive, and I had to find my footing again. I was feeling very isolated and alone, disconnected from myself and others. It was a wake-up call to the idea that, for a few years, I was not living my life with any autonomy or sense of control. I know you cannot entirely control everything in your life, but I at least wanted the feeling that my hands were on the steering wheel and I was not heading down the wrong way of a one way street. This involved new friends, new hobbies, and new outlets of expression. I started to take music classes. I picked up reading as a hobby when I had never been much of a reader before. And I thought writing could be fun.
I had no specific goal in mind for this blog. It was just a place for me to record my thoughts. At times, this blog became many things. At times it was a diary. At other times it was serious music journalism. Some posts delved into really personal topics. Many were social commentaries. A few times I got to workshop my skills as a writer. And sometimes I lacked cohesion and just needed to expel some energy.
I felt fine that each week would be different. It never felt disjointed to me because the tones and topics would change from week to week. The whole experience felt very fluid overall because I did have a general theme of a new song every week, with each week being from a different artist with no repeats (with the exception of a few clever tricks i.e., U2 vs. Passengers). That was enough structure for me to set out in whatever direction I was going in.
Though this blog was a very common thing, it managed to do wonders for me as an outlet for expression. I really valued the times this blog allowed me to be vulnerable and confessional, expressing experiences or ideas that I found difficult to say out loud. It helped me become more confident in my convictions. It was a great stress reliever at times when I needed to channel certain frustrations whether they be personal or political. With those times, my writing became therapeutic. And, of course, spending an hour or so every week helped me become a better writer. I do not think that I am a particularly great writer, but this blog helped me become better. And I have a book being published later this year to show for it.
Sometimes, the decision for whatever song was the theme for the post became a challenge. If a song was associated with an anniversary, person, or event, then the occasion for those posts were quite obvious and sometimes easy, though I did not always jump at these opportunities. Another way I made a decision is if I had heard a song in some context and then wanted to explore the literal or figurative connections to it. And then there were times I had no energy but I still needed to write something, so I would begrudgingly phone it in. Even though I was following my own arbitrary rules for this blog, the rules kept me honest as well as open to songs unknown and unfamiliar to me.
I had spent a few months thinking about the song I wanted my last blog entry to be. Since this blog was always in flux in terms of quality and topic, I had sometimes made mistakes when I covered artists or songs near and dear to me. There were more times than I would care to admit that I wished I had waited to cover a specific artist because something noteworthy had just occurred, or that I found a better song from them that I would have liked to have covered (why I ever went with the unreleased version of Bob Dylan’s “Born in Time” instead of “Most of the Time,” my favorite song from him, I do not know). Based on those experiences, I really wanted to put in a lot of thought over this last song.
“You Get What You Give” by New Radicals was a massively successful song when it hit the airwaves in 1998. The first single from Maybe You’ve Been Brainwashed Too, New Radicals’ only studio album, “You Get What You Give” was a truly remarkable hit that that graced the world with its presence in the right place at the right time. The 90s cultural domination by grunge was waning and nu metal and the next wave of machinated boy bands were still to come when New Radicals, led and produced by frontman Gregg Alexander, dropped one of the greatest one-hit wonders to ever be produced.
While the lyrics and overall musical aesthetic of the song were not much different than most music produced at that time, it drew of timeless influences to craft its own timeless qualities. The song is produced so lushly, drawing in elements from earlier genres such as blue-eye soul and striking a balance in the vocals, delivered in an exquisite falsetto by Alexander. It is a lot of great classic elements that blend together to create something familiar yet bold.
Not only do I adore the instrumentation of the song, but I love the lyrics. The song is so positive and uplifting, reminding all of us that there is still so much to live for despite life’s challenges. That the light that can be found in life first come from within all of us. It is a song that no matter than I listen to it, I am instantly in a better mood. Feeling more empowered than I was before.
I do not believe in magical thinking, but I find the idea of it amusing. I had made the decision to end the blog after 300 posts months ago. Yesterday, my album group met virtually to discuss our thoughts on Lone Justice’s 1985 eponymous album. The hit from that album was “Ways to Be Wicked,” which was the first song I wrote about for the blog back during April 2015.
And while I had planned to end it on this song for months, imagine my surprise when I saw news yesterday that New Radicals would reunite, the first time in 22 years, to perform as part of the Presidential Inauguration for Joe Biden. It turns out the song was an anthem for the Biden family, especially between Joe and his son Beau while Beau was battling brain cancer. I loved reading that. It just goes to show how powerful of a force music can be for people. “You Get What You Give” was a source of empowerment for them and their love as father and son. That in the week where a new president enters the White House, this memory can be honored in such a way. The same week that I wanted to write about it because it makes me happy and feel more empowered about myself. Music can do anything and everything and as can I.
I think that is the note I want to end Deep End Songs on; empowerment. This song makes me feel empowered and I want everyone else to feel empowered by it too. I do not know what is next for me in terms of projects. I would like for COVID to go away and for me to reconnect with friends and family as well as within myself exploring in a way I have not been able to do for a year. I do not know what will happen going forward, but I am choosing to believe things are going to get better. Until then, I know I will carry on. The music is in me. The music is in all of us. And if you want life to give you its best, you gotta give it your best. You only get what you give.